Brother, I don't know you, I'm new here, but Im going through a hell of a time too, my family and I may be sleeping in our van soon, but I will not let go of my art tools, IDE lose my mind if I did, I'll be praying for you too, it does work, and it's nice to know you are never truly alone, The Lord will be there to help you trough this just believe he will, enough preaching, keep a brush man, you will regret it if you don't.